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“A lot of people have this problem, and maybe you are one of them. Many people tend to look at the past, instead of looking towards the future.”
I am not one of those people that say, ” I have no regrets”, or ” I am a better person for it”. Even though undoubtedly, I AM a better person for the things I’ve experienced, I still think I could of done with out.
I do have regrets & that is probably the most difficult realization a person could make in their life. Knowing that one decision, IS what could of made a difference.
I have with out a doubt, A GOOD LIFE. I won’t negate all the good things that have happened to me, or all the wonderful people I have met. I do feel though, at times, that I am missing something. I don’t know what that is… and that is exactly what troubles me the most. I am not searching for a problem, or aching for pain. I am simply missing something. And I think that maybe I need to reassure myself that I have made ALL the right choices.
I have a man, that makes me so incredibly happy. A happiness that I have never ever felt before. And an incredible amount of love and support from my family and friends, that cannot be denied.
What ever that is, this “thing” that I am missing. Today, I chose to move forward. Today I chose to never have “it” in my mind again. Today I will assume that all the happiness in my life, is because I am missing that “thing”.
I don’t think I have ever been so happy with anyone, it makes me sick.
I know everybody believes that their better half is their best friend. But in my case, he is truly my best friend. And i know, i know…its super cliche, but I do feel like he understand me better than anybody else in my life. And i know this mostly when he kisses me and tells me how beautiful I am. Or when i sit there and show him all the songs that make my heart hurt, and he sits there and listens to them all with me. Or that I can sleep next to him every night, and never miss my own bed. Or the fact that I’ve been my worst in front of him, and yet he has brought out the best in me.
I don’t want to jinx any part of this by writing about it. But it feels so wrong not writing about something that makes me so happy.
So cheers!! I never in a million years thought i’d be so smitten with the man, who has slept in my bed for nearly 3 years and never made a move on me. Talk about messing up my plans. haha
My human nature? To tell you to fuck off the moment you hurt me. So why, do i always keep coming back to you? Why after almost 2 years am i still so weak for you? I don’t get it. It makes me feel like a failure. It makes me feel like a sorry excuse for a human. lt makes me feel so weak and I hate it. It drives me crazy…. it makes me want to punch some sense into you and scream, “Dont you get it?! its always been you!
I love the first time we went surfing together. How when I finally made it past the waves you were there waiting for me. Laughing but waiting. You said that you have never felt more at peace in your life, and how insignificant everything else felt. We sat there, and we took it all in the beauty of it, we took in how incredibly huge the ocean is. I remember sitting there looking at your beautiful face and there you were with your mean looking jaw, with that mean face of yours that just screams “I hate this world!” and you looked and me and told me how beautiful i was. I still know and recognize that look regardless of whether you tell me or not.
This weekend my brother in law lost his nephew. My heart and soul goes out to Ezequiel and his wife, who lost their beautiful son. Johnathan was a great boy full of life but unfortunately he was taken way too soon.
There is now a new angel in Heaven, and Heaven is a better place because of him.
Ezequiel is a great father, who works so hard to provide his kids with everything. This tragic loss has been financially difficult for his family and we truly appreciate any help we can get.
I have provided a link (click on picture) with more information on Johnathan, his death and how to donate. But more importantly please prey for Zeke and his family. So they can have the strength to get through this.